Saturday, March 3, 2012

Do You Ever Doubt Your Decisions?

I do.  And I'm questioning this one right now. The decision to live homelesss might be the craziest idea I've ever had.  Do you know what I find? I find that I spend too much money. All the money I make goes to eating out and compensating for not having a domicile.  I may be having this feeling because it's low season for retail so my Amazon store isn't at peak sales, but it's hard to tell. Because I don't have a house and I live in my car, it's hard to know if I'd have more money if I had a house.  I get the feeling I'm not using this situation the best way I can.  I'm supposed to use this time to set and achieve more goals (for example, the time I'd spend cleaning and mowing should be spent, set and achieving goals.

On that note, I went to a local pub and inquired about my daughter singing in the pub in June (their next available date).  It's a paying job and I'm need to help her get a show together to present there.  The plan I have seems to be moving very slowly and I can't find the right location to hammer out a schedule like I did when I had a house.  I would put the kids to sleep and hammer out a business plan and a schedule to impliment the plan.  Then I'd go for it.  These days I seem to drift during the day and most of the days are spent making sure the kids are alright.  I know I shouldn't be doing that but it's a habit and they seem to milk that character in me. 

I'm trying to get them to set their goals and schedules for achieving them and let me do mine, but they still seem to expect me to do it for everyone.  If it keeps up and I can't following through on this plan, I'll end the venture and get a house.

I'll have to see if this'll be worth the trouble.  BTW, I'm taking my daughter up to Los Angeles to audition for the TV Show, "The Voice" aired on NBC, this month.  I'll post the results.  I'm including another youtube video of hers, enjoy! Kiss the Girl,  and yes...she's doing all the voices in this video. It's a competition called gender-bender. She had to present a song that a man usually sings in any style she wanted to sing it, she chose this one and she won this round of the competition.